a little bit of glitter

its december. i know its techinically november 29, but i can feel december just springing in and taking over. the thought of jorge's birthday being a week away, alex's flight home, my birthday, christmas morning, lahat! parang natataranta ako! i feel that i havent even begun to work on what needs to be done!

the invitations, the gifts, the shopping, the planning. lahat! ayayay!

but then i look at my workstation, and i see glitter all over the place. actually, all over my body too!! kasi naman, it sticks talaga! but its a reminder that those twinkling lights, fancy ribbon and big boxes are not what christmas is all about.

its the CHILD, the KING, the FATHER. its all about HIM!! He who came to take our place.

the glitz and the glamor should be all about HIS birthday, not mine. =)

garlic fried rice and spinners

its so easy to take little things for granted. i am so guilty of that.
like the rain. we take it for granted, but God sends it our way to help us out in ways we cannot count! i like to think of it as God saying, "My child, you've been so busy, let me water your plants for you!" He is such a sweet GOD!! or the sun... imagine? without the sun, our clothes take FOREVER to dry! i think it's His way of giving me a dryer...

this week, its been quiet at home. i've been able to do a lot of stuff, clean out closets, do the dishes the right way, juice some carrots, and squeeze calamansi too. sarap sarap. it's just ME, well me and joey =)

these are the things that i didn't get to appreciate while i was living here. it's so nice to have the chance to live in manila again and be able to experience it deeper this time. i love it.

today, i went to town and i did my banking, went to the market, and got some fresh coconut juice. it was nice kasi nga, i was able to walk around and enjoy the sun. sarap sarap talaga. ang sarap ng hindi nag mamadali, my time is my own to enjoy!! =)

i thank my Father for the big things, but most especiallly for the little things. the little things that give me great joy!

can love really move mountains?

minsan, sobrang i get disillusioned about so many things. when i thought that my will power and my drive is at its best, i am reminded that my strength is not my own... it is GODs and His alone.

this week has been so tiring for me. from back to back bazaars on wednesday to firing my maid on sunday night for stealing... yes. you read it right. she stole... isang buong balikbayan box na nga yung naipon niya. grabe!! pure craziness...

to the soul searching, heart wrenching conversation that GK and i had till 4am about everyone who is someone in my life... to my heartbreaking conversation with bob. i dont think i have ever cried that hard over someone. when i cried over christopher, it was because i was so happy that i didnt have to spend forever with him.

now its totally different. i learned over the span of a few months that its always been bob. no matter how far i go, or where i go, it'll always be him. and the hardest part is being patient about where GODs plan will take us.

so my question is... can love really move mountains? i wish i knew the answer. i wish i could say yes... i wish i could explain why... or at least tell you why i wanna know. but i know love is enough to conquer anything. love is more than enough to see you through a storm.

i'd rather have bad times with you
than good times with someone else
i'd rather be beside you in a storm
than safe and warm by myself
i'd rather have hard times together
than to have it easy apart
i'd rather have the one who holds my heart

i thought i was holding my heart. i thought it was safe from pain and disappointment, hindi pala. but the good this is that bob was holding it and caring for it like no one ever has. and i'm apprehensive about what the future may hold, but together we know Who holds our tomorrow.

my work station

for the longest time, i've always wanted to have a scrapbook room. a place i can call my own, where i can sit, think, create, and just be me. so now i have one. and the feeling is wonderful. just to be able to spread out and make anything i want to is... amazing! i can leave my mess, or clean it up. i can start a project and come back to it a day later.

i know that there will be a lot of creating that will take place in this room. i can't wait for that to happen!

qwento ko

qwento is tagalog for story...

one of my favorite questions is, "ano qwento mo?" meaning, what's your story. its the best way to start getting to know someone.

ako? qwento ko? i had a long week. a very frustrating one at that. but i am constantly reminded of GOD's grace and His goodness in my life. that i should not focus on my strength because i have none; that each day i am breathing is because of Him.

yan ang qwento ko. qwento kung paano ako nanghihina at there are moments that i just wanna give up. days that i just wanna spend in bed, crying... kasi feeling ko ang my life is still a rat race. although a much slower pace, i find myself running after something that isn't there!

but then He gently tells me that i need to slow down. and that i need to refocus. recharge.

so dear reader, sana you'll learn from my qwento. i'll post more qwentos everyday. sana you'll share your qwento with me!!