March 27, 2007

nope. you read right. 

i was looking through some old notebooks and i found this journal that a good friend gave me before i left california. i thought it was going to be a 2 week vacation... it became that one major decision that changed my life for good. read on, hope you pick up a thing or two...

"they say its the journey, not the destination. i say its both. the journey allows you to become a better person, to serve your purpose at your destination. 

2007 began as a crazy year... maybe because its my year... my year to take the journey with my faith & Father. i've always managed to stay in control of everything. contests, business, parties, people... i thought God was at my disposal too. i was wrong. God is in control of me, my life and my future. He holds my blue print, my layout. and although my heart knows it, my head can't seem to grasp it. i can't seem to let go. but God is good. he has let me unravel this mystery and realize that He is at work. i can't see it now, but i can feel it. now the key is to submit my heart and ind to what He is going to do. 

i am sitting at the terminal, waiting to board the plane back to toronto. it's like sitting at the very first car of the roller coaster... exciting & nerve wrecking all at once. "

2 years later, and i am at awe at how the Lord has managed to take hold of my life and my heart. how changed i am, how different i see things. i am still amazed at how He has been so patient and kind, loving me in spite of my imperfection, my sin, my being hard headed. 

2 years later,  i am amazed at how He has blessed me in all areas of my life! i am excited for what the next year holds for me. i am surrendered, at peace and waiting. 

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