creations

when i first made this blog, i had good intentions about making it my scrappin' blog. but yeah. day to day stuff is here too. i have been creating... as promised. a few layouts here and there. here are a few of my recent layouts. my most favorite one is the one entitled Someday. a good friend of mine snapped it with my camera as we were waiting for the wedding of RnK to start. the picture gives you a sneak peek into my feelings about marriage and settling down. SOMEDAY... i know it'll come. someday. i believe it. as much as i want to be ready for it, there are little things that scare me about it. but someday. someday i'll be ready. and that someday, will be the perfect day. i love how he captured the train of kristen's dress, the lovely flowers, my watch (signifying time) and most importantly, me sitting and waiting patiently! 

the others naman are about my family, my sister and my favorite project in life - spending time with children. 

last year, before robbie got married, we got the chance to go to EK as a family. 4 kami with george (alex's bf) and milli (our inaanak). ang saya saya ko. kasi lahat kami together. we all had a blast talaga. this was the week before jorgie flew off to iloilo and alex naman went back to toronto na. it was important to me kasi nga we were apart as a family since robbie went to college, tapos alex and i went to canada na rin. these moments are truly precious kasi nga it's very difficult to make up for the past. we can only create moments for the future. 

alex is my only sister. and she and i are pretty close. there isn't anything i wouldn't do for her and vice versa. this photo was taken right before the wedding. sobrang puyat kasi sila ni mikee kaka-gimmick that she fell asleep on a chair after the photo shoot. =) 

the last layout is of alex and majorn, an orphan at the sta rita orphanage. every chance i get, i'm there, spending time with the kids. they do have the basics in life, food, shelter, clothing. pero kulang sila sa hugs. there's so much of them and not enough hugs to go around. not enough love. si majorn, sobrang special. lagi yan when she sees me, takbo, talon, akap... ayaw bumitaw!! sobrang sweet. nakakalambot ng puso sobra. 

thanks for taking time to look!

Online Crop

wow. i've always been intrigued by online crops... like what takes place at one of those, who gets to play, etc... grabe. sobrang saya pala. it's like going to a crop without leaving your house. :) you have all your tools and toys at your fingertips. astig. 

anyway, i cropped with ladies from manila and singapore tonight. it was fun! check out the photos of the album that we worked on. 

no title

i just need to get this off my chest. chances are, no one will ever read this entry, so i have nothing to worry about. 

i am very lonely. i didn't know it until today at about 2:45pm, when i drove away from my brother's house sobbing uncontrollably. di ko na nga makita yung kalye. lately, laging ganito ang feeling ko. i'm surrounded by people, i laugh, i talk, i make people smile. but inside, my heart is so broken, so lonely. i can't even figure out why. i'm not ungrateful, no. i am very blessed and i never fail to recount as much as i can to remind me. but i am still lonely. i long to talk to someone and just tell them how i wish i could get a hug. just one long hug. or someone to hold my hand and remind me everything will be ok. that everything will fall into place. 

i know i have a ton of friends that i can call on. but i don't want to make that call. nahihiya akong sabihing, "sit with me naman. sobrang lungkot ko lang." siguro nga pride lang rin yun. pero sobrang i just long to have a friend who can see through me and see how sad i am. 

all the people around me have things going on rin naman, kaya nihihiya akong abalahin pa sila. they have things to do, places to go and people to see.

wish ko lang, one day, i'll be on someone's list of people to see, house to visit for no reason at all. yung dadalawin mo lang ako dahil gusto mo akong kamustahin. hindi yung dahil may pagagawa ka, or may hihiramin ka, or you need help with something. just visit ME. ask me how i am doing. 

i want a friend to spend saturday afternoons with. maybe at the mall, or at the nearest coffeeshop. i want someone to make plans with for the evening. kahit anong kalokohan lang. kahit to walk the aisles of the grocery. and i just want a friend. i don't need a lifetime plan, or a promise. i just want a friend. no strings attached. just a true friend. 

movies and tears

alright, i have to admit... i am a sucker for sappy movies. alam mo yung feeling when may sobrang romantic or mushy scene, your heart can feel this like gentle pain? yeah... those. i had one of those last night. and it's just funny because i do cry at movies (kaya sobrang nakakahiya akong date! hahaha), but there are a few moments when i find it hard to breathe. i guess it's because i can totally relate to movies. 

minsan nga i feel dapat wag nang manuod ng mga tagalog movies na yan. pero kasi sa totoo lang, ang sarap kiligin. ang sarap ma-feel yung like ligawan stage where all the kilig moments happen. although i always find myself wondering, "does this kind of kilig really exist in real life?" or better yet, parang gusto makita yung life nila sa movie like maybe 4-5 years later... is it still the same? nakaka-kilig pa ba? or may kilig pa ba? 

the other day i saw PS: I Love You (Hilary Swank). ganda. i won't blow it if you haven't seen it, but i suggest that you do. wonderful lesson for couples. (i know... i'm not part of a couple right now, but hey! malapit na yan!!) anyway, ayun... i was sobbing through out the movie. and i think a few hours after it pa! grabe. buti na lang sa house lang ako nanuod. can you imagine!? may ka-date ka tapos YUCKIEEE!! umiiyak sa movie! hahaha. 

anyway, this should be one of my last OT entries. i promised joanne yap more of my scrap-happenings entries...

no qwento

alam ko, super long overdue na talaga yung serious na qwento and update on my life. its just been very busy since i got home. the carinderia is doing well. waaaay better than when it first started. i believe that we are turning the corner already and all it needs is for us to be focused on what we have before us. 

i was drafted to work on a fundraiser for LBBCA since they are scheduled to go to Palawan for the National Student Convention. we've been doing pretty good naman. yun lang, the pressure of the ticket purchase is creeping up on us and I don't know what we are going to do.... I pray that we'll have the money to buy the tickets na! the Lord will provide. I know He will!! 

i've also been working closely with another church friend, on raising funds for our future camp site in antipolo! we are off to a slow start, but we have leads. its just a matter of time and working on the leads that we have. it's been very exciting to see how The Lord works in as far as stretching my vision is concerned. there are days that i get panicky but HE is quick in reminding that i just need to trust. 

the benefit concert is coming up.... aaaaaaah!! stress. but it's a good stress. i think it's only a matter of time before we start having full rehearsals and things start falling into place! i can't wait for a lovely performance!!